Things in my life began to go downhill quickly since I had broke it off with my beau of over a year.
We began to have more arguments as the new year went on. I felt like I disagreed with everything he’d say, just to get on his nerve. I felt like I was constantly fighting for attention. We just got so comfortable being around one another. Nothing was sexy and nothing was exciting. We didn’t have sex anymore because he felt like I was pressuring him to do so. I felt bad that I was pressuring him for sex. What man doesn’t want sex all the time? Him I guess…

We decided to take a step back and figure out what it was we needed for ourselves. I found that I love being by myself. I like just walking around the pond and sitting in the grass. Being alone lets me re-balance my mind and it keeps me sane.

We took a break for a couple of weeks and now starting hanging out again. I can’t believe how much I have learned about myself and how much I feel like I’ve changed. He has bought a journal to talk out his problems to, and I am focusing on my school work. I’ve only got 5 more weeks until school is out for the summer time! Yay! Things are going really well. We only try to see one another a few times  a week so we can give one another our space that is needed. So far, things are going along swimmingly.

My life is also going great. I’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about myself and my outlooks or attitude toward things. I’ve not really thought about my own damage I do to myself and others when I’ve got a negative attitude. It really presses people down. It isn’t a good thing to hear your boyfriend say that they are having second thoughts about the relationship because of my attitude. That is just sick. I’ve been spending lots of evenings sitting out by the pond reflecting my day and what happened in it. It is so relaxing, and it is what I need right now. School is causing stress and stress causes fat and hair loss. I don’t want either of those!

Anyways, my Mister and I are doing really well. It was really nice when we had a small separation how much I started actually appreciating and realizing how much I really do love him. I haven’t felt like this with another Mister before…it is really nice; to be so in love is to be filthy rich. We compliment one another with our personalities. I love him.

I don’t really have any dirt otherwise….sorry folks.