I’m just letting you know this because I have.

I don’t know why I’ve been on such good behavior this year. Last year I was so confused with what I wanted and what he wanted, so it was kind of a self fulfilling time I had. This past Christmas things changed for the better. I finally realized that love isn’t always exciting or fast paced. Sex was once a need and we pretty much spent all of our time naked because we were humping at every chance we got! Now, our love is a comfortable one. I’ve learned more about myself and my actions because of him. Oh, sure, I still have fantasies about others sometimes, but who doesn’t?

This weekend we’re going to stay in a nice hotel, just to get away for a night. We’ll prolly stay up most of the night. I’ve won tickets to a concert this Friday, so we are planning on going and then cabbing it back to our hotel around 11pm or so I suppose.  Then, I’m assuming, we’ll drink some more and smoke some weed. Hopefully we’ll have some good sexual healing going on

Now, a turn for the worst:
I’m really nervous about my period. I’ve gone off of the pill recently because I was getting severe and constant headaches. Turns out that it was from this kind of pill form birth control.
Anyways, my beau and I have gotten intimate a few times and we didn’t use a condom until he was wanting to finish. He usually waits until I’ve come first, then he’ll come after. Well, I was talking to a gal who got pregnant using this technique….*crickets* That was my exact response. I took a test on Saturday and it was negative, but it was a little longer than 5 days before my missed period…I was assuming that I’d get it this week because this week will be about a month…. I’m going in for my annual next Wednesday. I will have the doc give me a pregnancy test to see if I am. Their confirmation is more accurate than an at home test.
I’ve discussed it with my mister and he said that money isn’t an issue. He said that we are not equipped to have a child together. He is right, we’d not be able to give it our full attention and dedication at this point in our lives. I completely agree. We both would consider having kids together someday, but not at this point in our lives. We both still work at middle class jobs, making about $14 an hour, and not to mention we still like to go out and have fun!! Babies are cute if they aren’t mine. I wouldn’t be able to handle one.

I’m really hoping that my period will come this week. My fingers are crossed. I’m also nervous. It seems that I think about it every other minute. I need to push it off for now, and I’ll get a confirmation next Wednesday.

xo