I have this job that requires me to be “bitch” to everyones beckoning call. I am a pee-on of this place. Nobody really cares. I mean, they all just walk on by; they could care less about how my feckin’ day is. Meanwhile, I take every precaution to say, “Good Day! How are you?” Most just shuffle past me. I feel like I am not worth anything here anymore. I’ll have been here for 4 years come this May.

Have you ever O.D’d on somthing? What does it feel like? Just a curious question. I was thinking about it yesterday, and now I want to know what it does or would feel like. NO! I’m not planning on it, I just am a curious kid.

Does anyone else loathe their job? I don’t quite hate it much anymore, but I definitely need a change. I’ve been here for four years, and I can’t imagine life in a positive way with this job. Yes, at times I wonder about death, but I’m now going to school and trying to better my career choices with the education. I won’t be done for another four years or so, but I can definitely say, that when I’m done with school, I’ll be closer to death…literally. I am going for a Mortuary Science degree in mind. Death fascinates me. I love it. I think death is the most beautiful thing in the world. The science of how a body breaks down and the different stages it goes through with decomposing.

Anyways, I’m going to put my foot forth and start working on this pile of papers that the “big wigs” have given me. I hate data entry.

I can’t wait to go home, sit in a hot bath, and smoke a bowl.
Oh wait, I can’t do that until I’m done with school tonight at 9:40pm.
Fuck my life.

xo