So far 2009 has started out with a bang in the first two months.
-I have moved to a great place, all by myself.
-I am going to school.
-I have a full time job to be thankful for
-I have great friends, family, and boyfriend.

Then things started falling apart financially.
-I got towed for being just short of 5 feet away from the alleyway.
-I had to pay $145 to get it out of the impound.
-While they towed my truck, they dented the tailgate…pretty fucking bad.
-I was uninformed that my W-2′s were marked EXEMPT for 2008.
-I now owe the Feds $1775 for the exemption.

FUCK MY FINANCIAL LIFE!

The one big thing that I need to make every month is rent. $550. That is all.
I am trying so hard to balance money right now that I can hardly focus on my schoolwork. My schoolwork isn’t “suffering” but it could use a vast improvement on my behalf. If only I could be encouraged to sit down and study. I have no interests in it… I am quite sad that I’ve slipped into that slump.

On a good note, my boyfriend and I have been together for a little over a year now. I didn’t realize that he had really loved me. I had spent so long looking for love and answers from the relationship. I had always thought that a relationship was supposed to have negative things because that is all I’ve known in men.
I had figured that he didn’t love me because he never really showed me, or because I was too busy looking for other qualities. Christmas came and he had bought me a few gifts. I had specifically told everyone that I was unable to buy gifts so they were not to buy me anything. He had presented me with a decorated Starbucks bag…he had drawn all over it I immediately started to cry because I knew how selfish I had been. He had loved me all along, but it took a gift for me to actually realize it. I mean, I’m not saying that I needed something physical from him, but it was the fact that when he bought these gifts, he was thinking about me. I never pointed anything out that I wanted…he just observed. It was then that I realized how big of a bitch I had been for a year. I had stuck with him, but I was still looking for more… sometimes looking for more, you end up getting less. I found that out the hard and emotional way.

Since Christmas, our relationship has really blossomed. I think it has been better because both of us have realized what good we have in one another. I don’t know why he’s become more loving and caring (not that he wasn’t, but he shares it more openly) but after being with him for a year I feel grounded. In a good way! I feel like we are more established. I wasn’t just a fling or yesterday’s news; we’ve been seeing one another for a year and now it is game time. We love spending time together. I have my own place now, and he has a set of keys It feels like we live together because he comes over most days. I love that.

In my year of being 22 I have learned a lot. Here are a few examples:
-I’ve learned that I’ve been a selfish person.
-I know what I want out of a relationship.
-I know that I want to better myself by earning a degree.
-I can be a good natured person, and I will be.
-I don’t need to bottle emotions. It is easier to share.
-I don’t need drama.
-I love not having life planned out to a “T.”
-It is best to be patient.

I am really hoping that my 23rd year in life will be way better than the last.
Cheers! to 2009.

xo